April 12th, 2015

Because he makes me happy!

Through writing my memoir for school, I have had to face a lot of demons that I thought I had put away in the past. Now, I realize that the will always be open wounds just covered with a liquid bandage. I have so much that haunts me but I do not think that I let myself feel the pain. Instead, I cover it up with a sarcastic, witty attitude; way tougher than I really am. Hell, I cannot even kick a phone book. But today, my faith was somewhat restored when I learned that Hillary Clinton was running for President. I receive a lot of scrutiny for supporting her but I do not care. You have an opinion but I have a BA in Politics so clearly, I am way smarter. That is a joke by the way. I never claim to be any smarter than anyone else who has never studied politics. My biggest question right now is: will Obamacare become Clintoncare? Anyone? 

Much Love,
Mandi

March 25th, 2015

Because I love Adam Levine, that's why!
My energy level is so freaking low and I know that it has to do with the fact that it is still so damn cold outside. Yesterday, I walked to my car in a poofy coat and flip-flops. I am trying to lure spring to me but it is being resistant. The world would be a lot happier if the sun would just shine and give us happy vitamins and I could stop wearing a coat and start using the $20 scooter I bought! I'm cold and I am mentally whining and what is Giuliana Rancic doing to her hair? Like, I am definitely a fan but come on. And now I want a waist trainer so that will be my next investment. I buy pointless crap all the time so why not one more?

Much love,
Mandi

March 8th, 2015

Life can be fun but it can also have it's challenges. The worst is when you have a family member who competes with you or likes to talk down to you because you are doing better than them. I have one of those and no matter what idea I propose that would probably be really great for me, he thinks it is no good. His education level is high school which I respect for anyone. But he also thinks that he can never do anymore than what he is doing now. No aspirations, always a negative attitude yet arrogance in odd ways. Sometimes I want to know what I would have to do to make him more positive. Then, I realize that I would have to trade lives with him and let him go to grad school and write and make minimum wage because of the passion. If I could infuse one thing in to the world it would be that dreams can come true. Maybe not in the ways that we always believe but it can happen if you want it bad enough. How bad do you want it?

Much Love,
Mandi

PS: Adam Levine is just there because he makes me happy!

February 4th, 2015

Sometimes I wonder what the grand plan for me is and why I feel that I am being played like a puppet. I am 31 years old and I have no sense of what tomorrow will bring. Live for the moment. I cannot always do that, especially when it comes to situations grander than me. I often wish that certain things did not come so easy for me yet I fight all the time. I am consistently feeling like I am in battle mode and I am always ready to stand up for myself. Why should I have to do that? Why should anyone have to do that?

January 28th, 2015

For the love of Adam Levine...

I took on this really long and redundant writing job so that I could practice my concentration and make some money. It is tedious but then I was approved for an Amazon card as well as a PayPal card so I thought to myself "if you want things, you have to work for them." True story. I will appreciate my job when my leopard print Havaianas arrive in the mail tomorrow for my obli-cation I'm leaving for on Sunday. In case you are wonder, and obli-cation is half vacation and half obligation.

January 15th, 2015

Inner Idol(s): Oprah
Current Mood: cheerful
Song of the Day: "Crazy Bitch" by Buckcherry

Let's just start out the night by me addressing the fact that I am recapping "The Taste" for the site I work for Have U Heard?? and I am still baffled by my own ignorance. Anthony Bourdain is a coach and judge on the show but I, for some reason, believed that he was a magician. I do not know why but I was devastated when I discovered that he is a chef! Kind of like when you make up words to a song then find out the real words and say "my lyrics were so much better!"

January 6th, 2015

Inner Idols For the Day: Madea/ Brandi Glanville
Mood: conflicted
Song of the Day: "Lost Stars" by Adam Levine

So here I sit, watching "Dance Moms" for work and thinking "why would any parent subject their child to Abby Lee Miller?" She's a ginormous bully but I would like to believe that this is all her on camera persona. What we see and who people are deep down can be polar opposites. When I am smiling and cracking jokes, I could be breaking down inside. I have been breaking down and feeling like I have a GPS...but the mother fucker is broken. So I am on my own because I am too deviant to stop at a gas station to get directions. One moment I think I have the answers and the next second, I am so confused. The world swirls around me; I am a planet in the solar system much like Pluto. They can attempt to get rid of me but I will come back no matter what. No one underestimates Pluto! No one underestimates me!
Xo for now! Much Love,
Mandi