Sometimes I wonder what the grand plan for me is and why I feel that I am being played like a puppet. I am 31 years old and I have no sense of what tomorrow will bring. Live for the moment. I cannot always do that, especially when it comes to situations grander than me. I often wish that certain things did not come so easy for me yet I fight all the time. I am consistently feeling like I am in battle mode and I am always ready to stand up for myself. Why should I have to do that? Why should anyone have to do that?
Showing posts with label Lost Stars. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Lost Stars. Show all posts
Wednesday, February 4, 2015
Thursday, January 15, 2015
January 15th, 2015
Inner Idol(s): Oprah
Current Mood: cheerful
Song of the Day: "Crazy Bitch" by Buckcherry
Let's just start out the night by me addressing the fact that I am recapping "The Taste" for the site I work for Have U Heard?? and I am still baffled by my own ignorance. Anthony Bourdain is a coach and judge on the show but I, for some reason, believed that he was a magician. I do not know why but I was devastated when I discovered that he is a chef! Kind of like when you make up words to a song then find out the real words and say "my lyrics were so much better!"
Current Mood: cheerful
Song of the Day: "Crazy Bitch" by Buckcherry
Let's just start out the night by me addressing the fact that I am recapping "The Taste" for the site I work for Have U Heard?? and I am still baffled by my own ignorance. Anthony Bourdain is a coach and judge on the show but I, for some reason, believed that he was a magician. I do not know why but I was devastated when I discovered that he is a chef! Kind of like when you make up words to a song then find out the real words and say "my lyrics were so much better!"
Tuesday, January 6, 2015
January 6th, 2015
Inner Idols For the Day: Madea/ Brandi Glanville
Mood: conflicted
Song of the Day: "Lost Stars" by Adam Levine
So here I sit, watching "Dance Moms" for work and thinking "why would any parent subject their child to Abby Lee Miller?" She's a ginormous bully but I would like to believe that this is all her on camera persona. What we see and who people are deep down can be polar opposites. When I am smiling and cracking jokes, I could be breaking down inside. I have been breaking down and feeling like I have a GPS...but the mother fucker is broken. So I am on my own because I am too deviant to stop at a gas station to get directions. One moment I think I have the answers and the next second, I am so confused. The world swirls around me; I am a planet in the solar system much like Pluto. They can attempt to get rid of me but I will come back no matter what. No one underestimates Pluto! No one underestimates me!
Xo for now! Much Love,
Mandi
Mood: conflicted
Song of the Day: "Lost Stars" by Adam Levine
So here I sit, watching "Dance Moms" for work and thinking "why would any parent subject their child to Abby Lee Miller?" She's a ginormous bully but I would like to believe that this is all her on camera persona. What we see and who people are deep down can be polar opposites. When I am smiling and cracking jokes, I could be breaking down inside. I have been breaking down and feeling like I have a GPS...but the mother fucker is broken. So I am on my own because I am too deviant to stop at a gas station to get directions. One moment I think I have the answers and the next second, I am so confused. The world swirls around me; I am a planet in the solar system much like Pluto. They can attempt to get rid of me but I will come back no matter what. No one underestimates Pluto! No one underestimates me!
Xo for now! Much Love,
Mandi
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