April 12th, 2015

Because he makes me happy!

Through writing my memoir for school, I have had to face a lot of demons that I thought I had put away in the past. Now, I realize that the will always be open wounds just covered with a liquid bandage. I have so much that haunts me but I do not think that I let myself feel the pain. Instead, I cover it up with a sarcastic, witty attitude; way tougher than I really am. Hell, I cannot even kick a phone book. But today, my faith was somewhat restored when I learned that Hillary Clinton was running for President. I receive a lot of scrutiny for supporting her but I do not care. You have an opinion but I have a BA in Politics so clearly, I am way smarter. That is a joke by the way. I never claim to be any smarter than anyone else who has never studied politics. My biggest question right now is: will Obamacare become Clintoncare? Anyone? 

Much Love,
Mandi

January 20th, 2015

Inner Idol(s): ?
Current Mood: thoughtful
Song of the Day: "Velvet" by Chris Jamison

I have been battling an inner conflict for the past, I guess three weeks now. I am struggling to stick to my morals and all that I am and want to be yet I know that I may have to bend a little to get further in life. Friends tell me that whatever I choose to do with my life, they will support me but I don't think that they realize that yes, the long-term results could be amazing. Yet, in the short-term, I am grappling to find my answers. My mom knows that I was never one to follow the crowd and definitely never a "small town girl." Sometimes I wonder if having had a child who got her BA in Math or English would have made her life easier but I definitely think that she liked the challenge. After all, it is very reminiscent of the type of woman she is. We are not the types to lay down and play dead; it's just not in our nature.